Being on this negativity fast has cast a bright light on my dark spots. I’m seeing things I never saw about myself; and it hasn’t been all comfortable! If it were, it would probably be a sign that enough stretching and growing was not happening.
Having this challenge to live up to has given me something to concentrate on when, say for instance, I REALLY want to express my deep dissatisfaction with how a person is behaving. Instead of responding in the moment and EXPRESSING myself – as I am quite capable of doing, I stop to think, pray and re-frame the incident.
WOW – I NEVER realized how much I enjoyed expressing myself when something negative took place. Well, “enjoyed” is not quite the ‘mot juste’ – not the perfect word for the feeling. It’s more like a strong compelling pull towards self-expression in an attempt to get the negativity OUT of my body and mind. I have rationalized that by getting it out of me, I am expressing myself and at the same time getting the matter dealt with as honestly and maturely as possible. It’s a strong pull towards ‘getting this thing handled.’
But you know what, that was more like a strong pull towards satisfying my emotional need for release. It’s giving into to the needs of my flesh. Emotions – our feelings of anger, upset, irritation are all fear based and very much of the flesh…and not of the heart. They are neither reasonable nor loving and kind. They need instant gratification.
BUT, with the bright light of optimism being cast upon my lower emotions and reactions, I can see where some adjustments needed to be made.
This fast gives me something to occupy my thoughts and emotions in the midst of these little dramas. Now I make time for reason to prevail. I don’t react immediately.
In that time when I am NOT speaking or dwelling on the incident, I am looking for the positive. THAT activity occupies my time and attention.
Having a plan from ahead of time and something specific as my goal, negativity can’t just arrive and take a seat in my soul; it will be handled!
While looking for the positive, I am led into a state of love and optimism. And before I know it, the incident is being re-framed.
It’s amazing how when you look for something you tend to find it: Especially when there is light along your path.
Wishing you an abundance of love and light,
♥~